it’s time
for those faithful few that read my ramblings, i’m tired and ready for something new. my fatigue is mainly due to the nature of my work schedule and the fact that it seems to rule my life right now. it doesn’t help that i’m in no way passionate about what i do or who i work for. where are all the 9-5/mon-fri mindless jobs? i just want something like that, that will pay the bills and won’t rule my life. i want to create and serve. i want to see my wife more than just in the evenings and when we wake up. i know this is all just a season that i’ve had to walk through, but it’s been a year, and i think this season is up. if it isn’t, i’m definitely ready for it to be. i’m not cut out for the “working for the weekend” mentality. “the big company job” and benefits aren’t everything. i am thankful for what my time at my work has taught me but i’m ready to move on. i’m ready for normal life again…whatever that is. if anyone knows of anyone hiring with decent pay and a normal schedule, let me know. benefits would be nice but not completely necessary. my soul is dry. i feel like an unknown. like the people i once called my family don’t know who i am anymore or even know that i exist. i’m just overwhelmed. and apathy seems to have set in awhile ago and i want to break out of that now.
so yeah, that’s where i am. at 10:23 am. today.
